Wednesday, December 10, 2014

'tis the season...

So I'm not going to lie...this is how I have been feeling lately. I truly love Christmas time, first and foremost for the unbelievable gift of Jesus as my Savior. And then in celebrating Him, the traditions of the season- baking, parties, the music, gift giving...the kindness that tends to linger in the air more so than usual. However, this year has been a bit harder, and though I am struggling with trying not to lose the joy, I am actually finding the true joy of Christmas. It has been a year and half since our big move and then three mini moves since then. With that we have prayed earnestly for work and our needs have been met but definitely not the way we had expected or hoped for, leaving us still praying earnestly. So as I have entered the stores here and there and accept that I cannot buy the gifts I want to for others, the blessing has been in's okay not to. And in all of this...He is with me. God is faithful and I will not lose hope. I will continue to pray earnestly, thanking Him for every thing He has blessed us with. His ways are not our ways (Isaiah 55:8), He gives not as the world gives (John 14:27) and I am so thankful. We are clinging to this peace and the joy He gives. How good our God is: patient, kind, merciful and abounding in love. 

L O V E... 

G R A T I T U D E...

J O Y...

P E A C E...

"As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Abide in my love."~ John 15:9

So this is how I am trying to take each day, with silliness and joy :) Jesus paid the ultimate price for my life and yours...and though there may be times of weeping and frustration, joy comes in the morning (Psalm 30:5).

How is your Christmas season? Are you finding rest and joy in His word and in His faithfulness? Praying you are...

Sunday, November 2, 2014


Gratitude is the word of the month for our littles at church...isn't it for all of us? This picture says it all about my life right now...remembering I am blessed beyond measure, even on the hardest of days.

15 And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. ~Colossians 3:15 ESV

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

morning and evening...

"We shall never sing Gloria in excelsis except we pray to God De profundis: out of the depths must we cry, or we shall never behold glory in the highest. It is loving prayer. Prayer should be perfumed with love, saturated with love--love to our fellow saints, and love to Christ. Moreover, it must be a prayer full of faith. A man prevails only as he believes. The Holy Spirit is the author of faith, and strengthens it, so that we pray believing God's promise. O that this blessed combination of excellent graces, priceless and sweet as the spices of the merchant, might be fragrant within us because the Holy Ghost is in our hearts! Most blessed Comforter, exert thy mighty power within us, helping our infirmities in prayer."
~Charles Spurgeon's Morning and Evening Devotional

PS- I receive this devotional every morning from Biblegateway, what beautiful words Spurgeon shares.

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

this year...

So we took the plunge this year...right into public school. We are nearing the end of the 4th week and you know's been good. The boys are thriving and by God's precious grace, they are doing wonderfully in their classes. They have been become ridiculously aware of how awful people speak but the blessing is that they are turned off by it and are choosing to sit in different places, move to different groups, etc. After asking about where they were sitting at lunch time (I remember those days, where to sit, who to sit with, are they sitting alone...) our oldest said he had been sitting at different tables but the one he had sat at that particular day he wasn't going to sit at again. And the best part- he said a girl from church was sitting at the table behind him and she called to him saying, "Malcolm, God doesn't want you sitting at that table." Blessed this mama's heart.

I'm not going to lie. I miss them. I miss homeschooling. I miss going to co-ops. But I am thankful for every minute we have had with them. I am thankful they have been home as long as they have been because they have awesome relationships with each other, including with the little ones. I am thankful they have manners and good attitudes, for the most part, and that hubby and I can call them out on it when they don't. And despite my initial ideas about what I thought our life would look like now, I still help with school work and we still talk.

I love to see our boys flourishing in their excitement to be learning new things, playing football, making new friends, playing instruments. There are great opportunities in our school district, especially for our oldest right now and his love for technology. And I am beginning to see where our 10 year old has giftings...he is loving orchestra. Mal loves American Civics and Tech Ed and Len loves his honors English class. Their teachers are excited about what they are teaching-what a gift!

So my thoughts on homeschooling, public school, and Christian school...pray...God is faithful. I have been caught up in "this is what you should do only" and yes, God has absolutes and we are not to veer from that, but with school and our family, truly this is what is best for us right now. It came to a point this summer that we were swimming ferociously against the tide in our own strength and reality sunk in. And then there was a talk and tears and prayer...and peace. Ideally, in my world, we would be homeschooling and have lots of babies and live on a farm...but there are six other people involved in my it's not just my dream to have.

God is good always. He knows our hearts and the plans and paths He has for each of us. So my dream is for His will and not my own, continually laying my heart down before Him, trusting Him, loving Him, knowing His plans are SOOOO much better than mine. Praying all of our dreams are inline with His. He loves my husband and my kids way more than I could even imagine...and me too :) So as He is working on my heart, He is doing the same for each of them and working out what He has to. And He is faithful. As Scott and I commit our lives and our children's lives to the Lord, I know with the sweetest of trust that He will give us wisdom in raising these young men He has entrusted into our care. And on the off days...His grace is sufficient.

This evening I reminded one our sweet ones who was in tears, struggling with selfishness, His mercies are new every morning...oh, how this mama knows this...
Thankful for His mercies and grace...and His faithfulness.

Therefore do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised.
Hebrews 10:35-36 ESV

Thursday, September 4, 2014

to always rejoice...

Satisfy us in the morning with your steadfast love, that we may rejoice and be glad all our days.
Psalm 90:14

Rejoice in the Lord, O you righteous, and give thanks to his holy name!
Psalm 97:12

Let the heavens be glad, and let the earth rejoice; let the sea roar, and all that fills it;
Psalm 96:11

Tuesday, September 2, 2014


Be still, my heart! these anxious cares
To thee are burdens, thorns and snares;
They cast dishonor on the Lord,
And contradict His gracious word.

Brought safely by His hand thus far,
Why wilt thou now give place to fear?
How canst thou want if He provide,
Or lose thy way with such a Guide?

~John Newton, author of "Amazing Grace"

Your grace is sufficient for me, Lord...

Sunday, August 24, 2014

banana muffins = gratefulness

Banana muffins...they're what our neighbors just brought us. It was the husband, wife, and their daughter and they came to welcome us. And as I sit here typing (quickly I hope, as I am really supposed to be doing school work) I have the sweetest feeling of peace and gratefulness of God's provision. This has been a wild year. One of relocating back "home" and leaving "home." One of moving four times, entering a new season of schooling for our boys, me returning to school, hubby changing jobs and starting a new business. I am not going to lie, it's been a bit of a weary road, a lot of face to ground crying out in prayer, and waiting. The bulletin board for the church up the road read, "I am waiting patiently on you Lord, so please hurry!" or something like that...oh, yes, can't we relate.

This is just a note, remembering He is faithful. Trying to mold our lives is not the same as allowing Him to mold our lives, even with the best of intentions. He continues to remind me that He can be trusted and His path is good. God has blessed us abundantly this year. I can say this with the humblest of hearts, grateful beyond measure. Life is not perfect...that is not what His provision has been. It is seeing God at work in our hearts and seeing His love lavished on us, be it through the help of a new small group with moving, bread and cheese dropped off with joy from a tired and terribly busy uncle, finding quiet and peace with the ocean breeze while at a child's birthday party, the leaves gently swaying outside of my bedroom window, not being upset last night when the almost two year old, who was in bed, made the most unpleasant of messes...and needed yet another shower, a heartfelt talk at church with new friends, the Gospel spoken in church boldly and clearly with love, and banana muffins...
There is much to be said about relationships and being intentional in love...and seeing it.

 I love the Lord, because he has heard my voice and my pleas for mercy. Because he inclined his ear to me, therefore I will call on him as long as I live.~Psalm 116:1-2
For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue,[e] and virtue with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness,and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love. For if these qualities[f] are yours and are increasing, they keep you from being ineffective or unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. 2 Peter 1:5-8


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